I had a great call with my Write Better Faster coach today about why I always get tripped up on editing and feedback. Some people hate a blank page, and some people hate editing. It often varies because of your strengths. I'm really writing this blog post for myself, so I can remember it when I hit this pain point again. Mind you, I'm solid at editing other people's stuff, it's just my own that throws me.
But let me share the whys:
- I hate editing because I'm highly strategic, and I like to avoid pain. Can't I just brush through the high-level stuff and fix it all at that level rather than dwell in the details where the pain points are. I don't want to take down and rebuild the scaffolding. And I'm learning I can't expect the reader to follow my or the character's thinking but need to show how I or they got there.
- I'm a high activator. I just want to start the next thing and put more words on the page, I don't want to stick around with something that's already been done. What's the new fun thing?
- I like things very black and white. I think to know the target or goal and achieve it. Editing is more subjective, and I struggle with looking at long-form fiction of my own and knowing that what I've done is right or wrong, better or worse. So my #1 strength of self-assurance takes a backseat. I need to trust my gut but also lean into my trusted closest friends who can help me to grow.
- I'm a maximizer, and the book and the writing will never ever be "good enough" in my eyes. I take the feedback, and rather then realizing its nuances, I often think I need to make sweeping changes, which is not what is always necessary to improve.
- I'm a relator, which means I only really trust a close ring of people. In the past, I've taken feedback from too many sources, and then what I created lost my voice.